I am waking up everyday with nobrainer.com stuck in my head. Its temporary I can tell, but what if it isn’t. Now that’s scary! So am I stuck…? I think I’ll ask someone who is intelligent and wise, and has seen better ways of life than I have. I went over some symptoms just incase; let’s see, so I thought I should ask myself these questions and be honest about them rather than have someone else assess me-or judge, we really like to judge and assume this self-proclaimed absolute authority over other people’s lives.
• Am I unable to sustain attention and concentration? (Affirmative)
• Am I easily distracted? (Affirmative)
• Do I develop inappropriate levels of activity? (Affirmative)
• Am I impulsive? (Affirmative)
Hmmmmm!!!! It doesn’t feel as bad as it looks. Hahahahhahahhahahaa…I’ll survive whatever my scores are. I keep replaying the same tune "hor vi neevan ho"; I tell myself to believe this and ‘not just in theory’…
I am connecting indiscriminate occurrences in my head as if I’m some kind of conspiracy theorist, not that it hurts the head, but I must admit that it does get very exhausting. I have done nothing for the past 24 hours, okay that’s a lie. I did work on the matrix, a project I look forward to everyday-and keep playing myself this hypothetical day in my head, the day this project really happens. My mind lapses every two minutes as a hazed web takes over each of my thought. Things aren’t so simple and yet they are, the complexity of different auras confuses the air creating a vacuum. I have carved myself a more meaningful void. It helps me protract my sanity, cull my composure and lose my anxiety. Thank God my life isn't a dot-to-dot :D. That would've been painfully sad.
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